Hmmmm...for the first time since I've gotten here, over a month ago, I'm really starting to feel lonely. I think it's a culmination of a lot of things. I mean, to be honest, I have people around me a lot of the time. Alex and Marcus are at the apartment everyday, and when I don't see them, I see other people who I consider my friends here in Sydney. But I still feel like I'm missing that social aspect of my life that really has been vital and in the forfront of my development.
One of the reasons I believe I feel like this is that I haven't established myself here yet. While yes, I have friends here, they haven't really reached the level of friends home, which is to be expected. And while I understand that it will take time and I need to go out there more and make more friends, it's weird not to be able or feel comfortable enough to call people to catch up or just chat. And of course, I don't have a job yet so I don't even have work friends to talk to. Having said that, it's not like Alex isn't great company. The difference in that relationship is that we're family, meaning we've known each other forever and, even thought we both went to BU, we're not used to seeing each other as much as we do; luckily we haven't disagreed on anything since I've arrived. Also, I don't want to press myself upon her life too much because I know that can add stress to a relationship, so I try to make sure she has her time away from me with Marcus or other friends.
I think another reason for my feelings of isolation is that I feel so alienated from home, which yet again is not surprising since I now live on the other side of the world. And yet, it still bothers me for a few reasons. For one, whether it be good news with my family (like my sister getting into college or my brother coming home) or bad news with my friends (when I feel really guilty that I can't be there to help support), I feel like I'm missing out on really important events that I should be apart of. Not that I can be there for everything, and I never could in the past, but I've always made the people I love priorities and it hurts to not be able to be there if I'm needed.
Secondly, when I do talk with people from home, it's all about catching up with their lives or my life. It's always nice to catch up because then I still feel like I'm part of their lives, but the relationship is changed a lot when that's all you can really do. I miss a lot of that pointless gossip or blabber or fucking around that I did with a lot of my friends a lot of the time.
Also, to put even more stress on, all three BU girls who got here in August or September, including Alex, are starting to freak out that they won't be getting sponsored because Australia is now freaking out. If they don't get sponsored, they are gone in August or September and I will know even less people. It sucks a lot.
So those are my frustrations. Yes, I'm sitting at my computer at 10:15 in an empty apartment, all my friends in the States should be sleeping still. And all I have is myself right now. I now know what it's like for my abroad friends, for Joey in SF, and for all my people who left Boston by themselves. It's weird to be on your own, having to rely on everything you learned, and still feeling as though your coming up short.
I know this has been a depressing entry, but I really am having fun here. I promise.
Till next time.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Twit twit
I found twitter. It changed my life. I'm kind of obsessed.
http://twitter.com/A_M0
Till next time.
http://twitter.com/A_M0
Till next time.
Friday, March 13, 2009
I know this is way overdue...
What a crazy ride. I’ve been here for 3 weeks now and I don’t even know where to begin to describe what I’ve been going through. I’m sitting here in my room (yes…my very own room), watching Ocean’s 11 on my multi-channel DVD player and trying to grasp what I’ve been up to for the back 21 days.
Well, as I’ve said, I now have an apartment. Having officially moved in on the 7th of March, it’s been a chaotic time as Alex and I attempt to set up house. We have a gorgeous apartment with high ceilings, a kitchen with new appliances, including a dishwasher, hard wood floors, fully furnished with plenty of natural light. It’s located in the charming Eastern Suburb of Rose Bay, although not in the heart of the town. It is only a quick ferry or a bus ride away from the heart of the city. But it’s amazing. I feel like, unlike college, I can actually start to make a life here. That being said, I only have this place till September 3, when the owner returns from Germany. Pictures of the apartment will come soon.
On the job front, I’m finding it a little more difficult. While the country insists it’s feeling the recession, I can attest and say it is nowhere near the conditions of the States. But because they are starting to pinch their pennies, they are getting hesitant about adding people to their staff, which sucks for me. I have also been sending out resumes for smaller jobs but have yet to hear back. Grrrrrr. This is frustrating but I haven’t lost any hope!
Besides the job, I’m really content here. While not trying to make a living, I’ve spent my days just trying to stay busy. I’ve wandered the streets of Sydney, reacquainting myself with the layout and feel that these streets bring. I’ve seen old friends that I left behind here, while making new friends, both BU alums and Australians. And of course, because of weather here, I’ve beached it and tanned, because it’s another aspect of the culture here. It’s just wonderful.
That being said, of course I’m missing people. I’m missing my family and friends and as I hang up photos of people I care about in my room, I can’t help but be a little sad that I won’t see them for a while. And the weird thing is when I return to places without my Sydney crew (BIG SHOUT OUT) because I feel like they SHOULD be here. But, I can’t let that get me down. It’s still such an exciting time here and I finally feel free and grown-up (sans jobs).
All righty. That’s my life right now.
Till next time.
Well, as I’ve said, I now have an apartment. Having officially moved in on the 7th of March, it’s been a chaotic time as Alex and I attempt to set up house. We have a gorgeous apartment with high ceilings, a kitchen with new appliances, including a dishwasher, hard wood floors, fully furnished with plenty of natural light. It’s located in the charming Eastern Suburb of Rose Bay, although not in the heart of the town. It is only a quick ferry or a bus ride away from the heart of the city. But it’s amazing. I feel like, unlike college, I can actually start to make a life here. That being said, I only have this place till September 3, when the owner returns from Germany. Pictures of the apartment will come soon.
On the job front, I’m finding it a little more difficult. While the country insists it’s feeling the recession, I can attest and say it is nowhere near the conditions of the States. But because they are starting to pinch their pennies, they are getting hesitant about adding people to their staff, which sucks for me. I have also been sending out resumes for smaller jobs but have yet to hear back. Grrrrrr. This is frustrating but I haven’t lost any hope!
Besides the job, I’m really content here. While not trying to make a living, I’ve spent my days just trying to stay busy. I’ve wandered the streets of Sydney, reacquainting myself with the layout and feel that these streets bring. I’ve seen old friends that I left behind here, while making new friends, both BU alums and Australians. And of course, because of weather here, I’ve beached it and tanned, because it’s another aspect of the culture here. It’s just wonderful.
That being said, of course I’m missing people. I’m missing my family and friends and as I hang up photos of people I care about in my room, I can’t help but be a little sad that I won’t see them for a while. And the weird thing is when I return to places without my Sydney crew (BIG SHOUT OUT) because I feel like they SHOULD be here. But, I can’t let that get me down. It’s still such an exciting time here and I finally feel free and grown-up (sans jobs).
All righty. That’s my life right now.
Till next time.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
A New Chapter
Well I made it; it's a whole new day for me. After waking up to a warm breeze and parakeets outside the window, it hit me that I was actually in Sydney, AU. It's already been an adventurous 24 hours since landing in the down under metropolis. After dropping off my things that Marcus' place, Alex returned to work and I signed up for a bank account and phone. From there I ventured to Bondi Junction for a lunch of Sushi Train (soooo good) and shopping at K-Mart for toiletries. Finally we returned back to Alex's place for dinner and beers with her roommate and friends.
Today I took the ferry into the heart of Sydney and retraced the steps of my semester abroad. Seeing the beautiful city, Opera House and Hanger bridge really took my breath away. With songs from Spring 2007 on my iPod, I returned to the places that were so familiar to me 2 years before, finding that some places had changed while thankfully, some places had remained the same. For example, the fusion building is the same as well as Broadway Cafe, where I had lunch with Cal, but there is no more Well Being or Nando's.
I got to venture into Surry Hills as well, visiting Smart, the agency where I interned at 2 years ago. While I only saw Jordie because Ashley and Mischie were both out, it was nice to catch up and learn about their agency, any opportunities they knew about, or how the industry was here.
I now sit in an internet cafe, as Alex doesn't have internet capabilities at her apartment. It's weird, for as much as I expected to feel scared or out of place here, I find that there is a sense of familiarity to this city. I feel as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Also - a side note - Alex and I have a place to live in Rose Bay!!! Her friend Bob is moving to Germany for at least 6 months and we are taking his place, fully furnished. It's a gorgeous apartment in a beautiful area.
So here I'm starting a new life. There will be much more to come in the future, including many pictures. Stay tuned.
Till next time.
Today I took the ferry into the heart of Sydney and retraced the steps of my semester abroad. Seeing the beautiful city, Opera House and Hanger bridge really took my breath away. With songs from Spring 2007 on my iPod, I returned to the places that were so familiar to me 2 years before, finding that some places had changed while thankfully, some places had remained the same. For example, the fusion building is the same as well as Broadway Cafe, where I had lunch with Cal, but there is no more Well Being or Nando's.
I got to venture into Surry Hills as well, visiting Smart, the agency where I interned at 2 years ago. While I only saw Jordie because Ashley and Mischie were both out, it was nice to catch up and learn about their agency, any opportunities they knew about, or how the industry was here.
I now sit in an internet cafe, as Alex doesn't have internet capabilities at her apartment. It's weird, for as much as I expected to feel scared or out of place here, I find that there is a sense of familiarity to this city. I feel as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Also - a side note - Alex and I have a place to live in Rose Bay!!! Her friend Bob is moving to Germany for at least 6 months and we are taking his place, fully furnished. It's a gorgeous apartment in a beautiful area.
So here I'm starting a new life. There will be much more to come in the future, including many pictures. Stay tuned.
Till next time.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Just waiting
Well...here I sit in LAX, waiting to board in less than 2 hours for my 14 hour 40 minute flight to Sydney, Australia, where I will be starting a new life for at least a year. I've had a hectic, but wonderful last week, with adventures in NYC, Boston, and LA, connecting with friends for the last time for a while. As the sounds of the 81st Academy Awards and messages in every language imaginable echo in the background, I can't help but feel a swell of emotion. On one hand, there is pure excitement. I'm actually moving around the world! While I talked about it before, I've actually made it happen and now this is the home stretch before stepping off the plane to a Sydney morning. I also get to see Alex once more and get to prove to myself that everything I've experienced taught me something that will now help me start fresh. And of course, I'll be in Sydney once more. On another hand, there is pure fear; fear of the uncertainty of the life I'm entering, fear of the loneliness that plagues many of my friends who have gone overseas, and the biggest fear of all, failing again. I can't fail. I must make it work. I can't help to feel some sadness too, for I'm leaving behind a loving family and the best friends in the world.
Who knows what will come my way. All I know is that I'm really opening a new chapter in my life. And as the wise Joseph Gregory tells me, "hello world of opportunities."
Till next time.
Who knows what will come my way. All I know is that I'm really opening a new chapter in my life. And as the wise Joseph Gregory tells me, "hello world of opportunities."
Till next time.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Goodbye America
My plane takes off 5.5 hours. Then I'm off to LA for 36 hours before leaving the country for a while. This is weird.
Till next time.
Till next time.
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